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It's been 5 months had past, I haven't find another job. What I always did every time I woke up in the morning was Social Networking. Knowing if their is any updates from my loved ones, close friends or former classmates.
To be honest, Mixed emotions is what I am portraying and expressing at the same time while I am writing here in my virtual space. Like what I said in my introductory page, I can freely express how I feel.
Oh geez!.. I feel so nervous right now but here it goes:
Angry Because I really don't know what the employers are looking for. I followed their job descriptions posted in their site. I accept their invitations for the job interview. and then they will told me that " we will call you". I told myself "What?!?, we will call me again??. You must told me frankly in the first place that I am not qualified in your job description so that I don't expect more." I find it difficult to pleased them
But I thank myself that I still respect them.
Sad Because I gave all my best. I trust my abilities because I am a newbie or something. Although Failure was part of the reality when applying to the companies.
Disappointed Because I felt like I don't deserved to booked or hired in the company. Without my consent, I just teared of my resume into pieces followed by deactivating my other account. I think that earning a bachelor's degree was not enough. I still have a doubt if I need to pursue master's degree or not. They just showed to me that my knowledge was not enough.
In my opinion, It was sad for my part that I used social networking sites as my source of my happiness and getting rid of my boredom or stress. Even my parents were affected of my depression and disappointments. I thanked them for being supportive to me. It's getting worst when my former classmates asked me this question "Do you have a work?". I have no choice but to ignore them.
My plan is already settled. Helping my parents dealing or coping in financial problems was my priority since I already finished my college. I already told them my plans to them.. and they supported me. But the only problem concerns me the most was my job applications. I always received emails from the companies that I had applied was "I am not qualified.. the position was closed"... It really makes me sick ( doh!).
How can I help my parents if the companies today are very choosy.. They need to wake up and faced the reality that the Philippines is full of unemployed people. It was very disturbing for me.
That's why I started to say no to them when I received job interview invitation because I know that I will just received bad news from them.
I feel so sorry for myself why I am acted this way.. I just wanted to release how I feel at this moment. I know that the Lord understands me and forgive me for what I have said. Labels: ... Boring days ... |
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